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Sunday, November 15, 2009

So...yeah

Again, another crazy month.

Things change so drastically and so quickly in my little world.
And I am seriously debating on deleting my facebook. It is
a huge source of anxiety and hurt. And of course I bottle it up.
So weird how a little social network can affect people's lives so much.

So, a few posts ago I was really happy. This one, not so much.
It's funny reading back on it. I was so reluctant to admit
to any kind happiness. And seriously, the day after I posted
that, things fell completely apart. I know it's coincidental,
but it really hit me hard. And I probably will never publicly
talk about my happiness again. Sad, but oh well.
I'm dealing. A lot better than I did last time.
Except for the drinking. I need to get a handle on that.

I do want to take the time to thank my friends who have
been so supportive to me. I really don't know what I would
do without you guys. I could imagine that my situation
and my life seems kind of juvenile. I really do feel like
I am in high school again. And it must be annoying to witness
it. But I cannot thank you enough.

Especially my Moose. She really kind of took the reigns
in making sure I don't beat myself up. These past
few weeks have been really hard. And she has been there
for me in what little way she could. And it's been huge to me.
Love you so much Moose!

It will get better though. I know it will. I don't give up on love ever.
It's one of the few things I'm really good at, and it's what
life is all about.



6 comments:

KMCL☠ßUЯKE said...

OH MY TEISHA SMEISHA I LOVE YOUR FACE SO TONS AND TONS! YOU REALLY ARE A DOLL AND I THINK THE WORLD OF YOU! DON'T DELETE YOUR FB BECAUSE THEN I WOULDN'T GET TO SEE YOUR CUTE FACE EVERYDAY!! I LOVE YOUR POSTS WHETHER THEY ARE SAD, MAD, HAPPY, LOVE, WHATEVER... REALLY IF SOMEONE POST SOMETHING ON YOUR POST THAT YOU DISLIKE THEN YOU SHOULD JUST DELETE THEIR COMMENT... OR DELETE THEM IF THEY ARE REPEATED OFFENDERS OF THE TEISHA!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU!!!!! P.S. I WAS REALLY TRYING TO MOTIVIATE YOU TO FINISH THE OWL SO YOU COULD SELL IT ON YOUR ETSY AND KEEP THE PROFITS. I DIDN'T WANT TO TELL YOU UNTIL YOU FIXED IT UP BUT I DECIDED MAYBE YOU NEED A LIL EARLIER PICK ME UP THEN I THOUGHT (;

KMCL☠ßUЯKE said...

LOVE YOUR FACE

Jess said...

Tender. Glad you have the Misty. It is so nice when someone gets what you REALLY need. Perhaps it is time to delete some fb friends.

It was nice to see you at birdie's. We need dinner soon.

You look great btw.

Maranda said...

Good friends become the sheltering tree when life pours down on you...

I agree with Jess, DELETE the friends who are mean to you.

heather said...

Glad the Moose has done well, love that girl and I love you. Don't quit posting about your happiness or your lows. We love you because of both!

Æxï§ said...

Oh Teish! I'm sorry I haven't been there for you recently. I love you lots and hate to know that you hurt. I know this was posted awhile ago, so I hope you're doing better and I hope to get back into life more actively so I can be there for you the way I should.